Terribly misunderstood

Finally, the project that I've embarked in had ended. Hooray!

However, there was bad blood smeared throughout these few days.

When I received the call about this project, the coordinator (C) actually woke me up from my beauty sleep. However, I still let that person to keep me informed though it was early when the call was taken place.

These few days, I felt that I'm always in that misunderstood position. However, some of the incidents portrayed were very inaccurate and willnt put myself in good light.

Of course, there were many experts who were involved and had learnt a lot from them. However, the duration spent with these experts were fairly and it was a self discovery journey.

However, the person (who approached me for the project) wanna go into the direction suggested by a professional due to the current economic climate. The whole scenario was greatly exaggerated for the entertainment value.

Simply kept insisting that the show would be me going back to my old job scope and that's coordination. That's the career path that I felt that there was no future. Even though the task is important for the organisation but it was often neglected coz everybody wanna make sure everything runs smoothly.

Apparently, (H) didnt brief the other person (L) about my situation on the first day of the project. Hence, L automatically assumed that I was not humble enough.

From my understanding, H had told everybody that I was a difficult person to work with and it was not entirely true. The whole project was constantly surrounding the topic of me being very difficult to work with coz of the direction H was taking. It was untrue. Perhaps, there was certain unpleasantness and this lead to L to perceive that I was an arrogant based on the conversations that was gathered. L even commented on me that I hadnt done any humbling incidents such as doing menial tasks like courier, coffee server, etc. In actual fact, I did all this and this led to frustrations coz it was inaccurately portrayed.

The other thing that I thought H was not being professional as H had spoke to another colleague in a different language thinking that I wouldnt understand. Yes, I did knew that H was badmouthing about me.

Would like to share with H this. "If you wanna judge me, please check on yourself coz there is a famous saying 'Pot calling kettle black' ".

This week was a bad week for me coz I was challenged physically as was suffering cramps. Still, I was expected to perform and was scolded by H despite of letting the person know in advance. Basically, I had given a week's notice that I was not feeling well as a form of basic courtesy. Whatever I told the coordinator, those words fell into deaf ears. Was scolded for not looking interested. However, I told H earlier in the morning that I was unwell. Down with cramps and wanna take MC.

I understand that there's tight deadline but one has to understand that the only thing that's constant is still change.

On 13 Aug was the last day and H tried to mimic my accent. Thought it was very rude and I simply wanna get back my life soonest possible. The other incident was when I reached the office today, I was joking with a make-up artist (whom I met yesterday) about my make-up. However, there was a minder who quickly replied in an attacking mode "My face was not in their budget." Come on, I could do so on my own and told the minder off that it was a joke. Ridiculous!

The takeaway of this project is the lessons that I had with these experts. What I would like to share with the public is "Never believe what people or media say - entirely all 100% of it". Coz many a times, there's another side that we may not see or head. It doesnt mean that it's the truth coz there are certain elements that are used to generate and trigger reactions from the innocent audiences who dont know you at all.

In addition, I was not paid for my involvement so unsure why these people had to make you that you owe them a favor and may jeopardise my career.