Frustrations 1 ~ Contract

As mentioned earlier, I was in a brand new environment and in a GA currently. This is an interesting peek in this whole 'GA' and confirmed the fact that I should work in a MNC instead.

I've a direct who is a SM. I really dunno what's wrong with our relationship. The fact that she's a SM and two years younger than me. I was literally being 'bullied' by SM coz I'm only a temp.

One of the assignment was recommending improvements to the proposed script. When I read the script, the workings were the same except for the scenarios. When I gave that comment, SM was commenting that no, it was different. Ok, fine. I took back and re-read. Frankly, my comments were the wordings were exactly the same except the scenarios. What difference was SM referring to. Anyway, I gave SM some suggestions such as the script was too long (required shortening) and insert some names so that the prospectors would be interested. I did told SM I didnt have the experience in marketing and SM mentioned that they knew.

There were instances when I re-address my queries, SM gave me that type of 'Why you ask again, you mean you are unsure' look. One of the instances was when I asked SM about the deadline. The reply was " You have nothing to do, right? So, this will be ASAP." I was thinking this was research and this would take up a bit of time. At the same time, SM insisted that the events that I picked these had to be justified on using the modes of marketing coz SM wanna me to put on my thinking cap.

Yesterday, I had the task of asking another dept colleague about certain issues coz SM set a deadline that was today. The best part of working in a GA was everybody takes their time to do their time and the deadline was impossible. Guess what I was shouted at by another colleague for nothing. Why kill the messenger? I really hated it.

Today, I received an email from SM regarding about the deadline even though I had told SM about this already.It was a pity coz I didnt copy anybody in my email. What she wanted was a deadline. How could this be possible especially when GAs 'enjoy' doing tasks at their own sweet time? I decided to send an email with regards for any news, there was no specification of date. Next thing was SM wanted me to call in and was blasted by her fact that I was a message box and not using my 'problem-solving' skills. I was thinking if I had not use my brains then I would have sent an email with a date. Personally, I think she was implying that the fact that why am I stupid to send the email. How could not send when the other colleague was not in office?

It felt like a dagger stabbed into my heart. If I'm stupid, then why use my ideas in a discussion? So what if you are a SM? There are so many SMs in a GA and do not abuse your title just because I'm a contract staff.

I am not playing a victim but I do feel sad and insulted. I'm consoled myself that 'things that do not kill me will only make me stronger' coz I've done that before. No, I will not 'kowtow' to defeat and let alone bow down to you!

PS: I also realised that there are many things that were not communicate properly.

Hint : Thanks to tax payers' moolah that enable me to enjoy the millon dollar view every working day!