Depressed

I feel that I've lost myself in the downwards spiral and the light seems so faraway. SL commented that I'm swallowing in self pity. At the same time, I dun seem to be happy about my life and how's it's heading.

I know that I've a treasure in my life and not even using it. I'm really need to use it.

Perhaps, I'm tired of trying out anything. I dunno what am I doing with my life...

The fact I'm not getting younger and if I enter a new industry, I've to start all over again and salary will be low. Am I asking too much? I begin to doubt about my ability and skills. Many of my frens do try to convince me what am I experiencing is temporary.

The experience also gives me the thought why there's a need to obtain a higher education especially what is happening to me now though many of them tell me that there's an advantage in obtaining one. But now, it's the employers' market now and they are capable of pushing the market value down.

I also know that I cant lead and live this type of life coz my savings are almost depleted.

Feel so useless...plus it doesnt help when you could see your frens are moving up in their career ladders. Travelling to different parts of the world.

As for me, dun tink I've done anything significant in my life now and not been travelling.

Right now, the only thing that can alleviate my pain is shopping but that's only temporary and terribly depressed.

Help!