Total Bitch

Felt like a total bitch after quarrelling about the time spent with SL's colleagues. Yup, I'm totally jealous about his relationships with his colleagues. However, he spent almost all his weekends with them.

Of course, expletives were coming out from my end and unsure whether it would get him into trouble. Felt bad...really bad...didnt feel good after the quarrel.

Perhaps, I feel like a loser who's trapped in my current situation and feel helpless.

Sometimes, I really wonder how much more nonsense he could take coz there are times when I want to distance myself away from him. He's a super nice guy and is 'bullied' by me. I do wonder what does he see in me especially this trying period when I'm constantly in doubt about myself, my abilities, etc.

I'm a fallen angel who fell from the heaven that my wings were broken when I landed on the ground. And I'm now a mortal. I can taste blood, pains, sorrows, etc.

To SL

I'm sorry and there's not enough of apologies to get around with the troubles and problems that I've put you through.