To me, I think to see a person reveals his / her character is to give that person either money or power.
Met up with one of my frens, KK for a belated dinner and chatted about happenings in our lives for the previous months. Went to an eating joint at my ex-workplace as they offer the one of the best popiah in town.
Later, we adjourned to a drinking place. After we ended, we parted ways and decided to walk from Bugis to PS just to take a bus home. I find walking is therapeutic and need this for exercise. Really dont know how long is my drought. However, I'm going pray till it happens.
(Sidetrack : He claimed that he had SGD 10 with him and would draw later. Then I told him that I would pay first. However, I was a bit pissed coz I picked up his tab coz he didnt have the intention to go to an ATM to draw. Come on, it was a mere SGD 11 but it was a huge amount if you are freaking broke. I was thinking whether he was trying to make me pay coz that 'little girl' didnt pay him back. True, it was a belated birthday gathering but well, it didnt mean that I wanna spend that amount on his pressie. The best part was he had some money left and ended in a game arcade playing games. I was thinking whether he really thought that I was giving him a treat. BTW, he's working and I'm surviving on my savings. Perhaps, the incident will make me retink about hanging out with him. )
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9.9.09
12.5.09
One of my darkest hours of my life :(
In life, we encounter many highs and lows. Similar a rollercoaster ride!
I am at one of my lowest point in my life.First, my confidence is lost. Then my esteem and spirit. My faith is the last thing to lose. It feels like I am in a deep, dark and never ending bottomless pit. My cycle of sleep has been disturbed and am totally alert during the wee hours of morning. In some days, I cry myself to sleep. Tired and lack of motivation are my frens. I am lost and leading to the road of self-destruction. Often, I become very quiet and withdrawal.
My access to the outside world was disconnected due to late settlement of my bills. It happened when I felt the urge to do something. Then I was lost in the black hole again and experiencing withdrawal symptoms especially almost everybody is connected via the net.
With this global economic crisis, it is opportunity for some. While others, it is retrenchment. As for me, I am part of the statistics. This has made my situation worse especially when you had sent out a couple of resumes and yet there is no response. It makes me feel that I was not good enough and have not live up the potential that I think I have.
The only thing that is constant and does not stop coming is bills even when you are down and out. These will continue to increase and I will find my savings depleted very soon. It is scary and frustrating for me. It definitely caused stress and anxiety unlike what people say things like "How could you be stressed when you are not working?" How not to feel stressed especially when your outflow of money is higher than your inflow?
Of course, every dark cloud has a silver lining. SL is very understanding and comforting during this period and I feel very bad coz he has been very nice.
The other incident is my bro agrees to let me use his Internet connection. Hooray!
However, I'm being realistic and not pessimistic as such happiness is often short lived coz the bills will still be coming in like tidal waves and my savings will be depleted fast.
Argh! I really need to get a job soon! Must pursue my life of happyiness!
Wish me luck!
PS : Have encountered this article.Hope this helps!
I am at one of my lowest point in my life.First, my confidence is lost. Then my esteem and spirit. My faith is the last thing to lose. It feels like I am in a deep, dark and never ending bottomless pit. My cycle of sleep has been disturbed and am totally alert during the wee hours of morning. In some days, I cry myself to sleep. Tired and lack of motivation are my frens. I am lost and leading to the road of self-destruction. Often, I become very quiet and withdrawal.
My access to the outside world was disconnected due to late settlement of my bills. It happened when I felt the urge to do something. Then I was lost in the black hole again and experiencing withdrawal symptoms especially almost everybody is connected via the net.
With this global economic crisis, it is opportunity for some. While others, it is retrenchment. As for me, I am part of the statistics. This has made my situation worse especially when you had sent out a couple of resumes and yet there is no response. It makes me feel that I was not good enough and have not live up the potential that I think I have.
The only thing that is constant and does not stop coming is bills even when you are down and out. These will continue to increase and I will find my savings depleted very soon. It is scary and frustrating for me. It definitely caused stress and anxiety unlike what people say things like "How could you be stressed when you are not working?" How not to feel stressed especially when your outflow of money is higher than your inflow?
Of course, every dark cloud has a silver lining. SL is very understanding and comforting during this period and I feel very bad coz he has been very nice.
The other incident is my bro agrees to let me use his Internet connection. Hooray!
However, I'm being realistic and not pessimistic as such happiness is often short lived coz the bills will still be coming in like tidal waves and my savings will be depleted fast.
Argh! I really need to get a job soon! Must pursue my life of happyiness!
Wish me luck!
PS : Have encountered this article.Hope this helps!
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